Today is a most humbling day. 1) Someone beat me to making an appointment. Have to settle for a different, less convenient schedule. 2) Was in major pain while training in karate because the exercise called for punches and kicks to the stomach and my partner was kicking and punching too hard. Had to not show it or flinch but it really hurt. 3) While sparring, i got kicked on the side of the head. Didnt see it. I wasnt used to sparring with head shots allowed. It showed how much more i need to train. (that's me with the blue gloves) 4) My old sensei joked that i was slow. 5) I played badminton after karate training and even if we won the first game, we lost the other. I didnt have enough juice to handle badminton. I didnt have fun. Yeah, one shouldnt push their bodies like that but i used to handle it well. Lets not even get into the age factor. Im sure Nadj will tell me that it was because im old na. Sigh.

The decision to leave for the states was made for me. I have to get out of this house. I cant be told what to do and when.