My heart is numb.

My brain says i feel bad. Do i?

Got news that crushed me. I feel that loving with all your heart and being there for the other loyally and loving in the best way possible may not even be enough. Still dont get how "bad boys" get the girls while guys who try to be good and loving... get hurt. Why does it seem so easy for people to get over someone who loved them with all their heart, who put them before anything else, who treasured them like the precious pearl.

Funny. I now feel how my friend, Sam, feels.

Today i died.