I found a blog that spoke of her desire to find someone to love her unconditionally and with some constancy. While reading it, i started to wonder what would happen if she did find a guy who can give her that kind of love. Will she appreciate it? Will she be content? A mortal person's love is not perfect but one can always strive to attain a semblance of that perfect unconditional love that God provides. Deep inside, we know that it is that love, God's love, that we want to feel in any relationship. ... I just lost my train of thought but lets just say that very few people are content with the treasures they have. Most think that the grass can still be greener in the next pasture. This lady with the blog desires this particular love like some of the women i know but will it ever be enough if they finally have it? (To those who know me well enough, yes, im through processing and im fine. I still believe in giving 100% when i love, as i wrote in another blog entry, but im more careful who to give it to.)

I’ve been reading this book I borrowed from my Karate Senior. It is called Karate-do: My Way of Life. It was written by the Father of Modern day Karate, Gichin Funakoshi. I think i'm making him my new idol. He lived until past 90 years. He was practicing karate for most of his life and never needed to go to a doctor or take any medicine. He just kept taking care of his body through exercise, in particular, Karate training. If he felt ill or had tummy problems, all he did was start training until his fever broke or until he felt better. More important is how he lived. He lived simply and with a lot of humility. Based on what friends tell me, I need a lof of the latter. Hey, you go live life with a name like Super and you tell me that you wont strive to live up to it. Frankly, I do my best to show humility but even when I do they still think i'm mayabang. Some say its in the way I stand or hold myself erect. How can I control that? I started karate when I was 9. All that training made me and my body the way it is. I can train myself to slouch but why would I want to do that? Some say its my stories. I do have a lot of stories about the things I found, did or just the things that happened to me. I love exploring and doing new things. If people ask me, I now do so only if they ask, then I tell them about it. Why think ill of me if I tell you something that you asked for? Anyway, I cant please everybody so I’ll just go my merry way but will keep humility in mind.

I digress, the book is about how Funakoshi started karate and even talks about his teachers, Azato and Itosu, who were both great karate masters. He had stories about his teachers like how Itosu displayed humility by moving away from a possible fight that he knows he can easily win. In the end, the antagonists realized their mistake and apologized. One of his other teachers, Matsumura, even fought a battle without even lifting an arm. He also talked about how his supportive wife studied some of his katas while he practices and was later became popular in the village because while he was away, his students asks her to correct their mistakes. If you find a copy, go get it :) I did have to order from Amazon.com for mine. It is a fun and funny book about a great man. I think you’d appreciate it even if you don’t practice karate.

Last week, I got to talk to a long lost close friend, Kay. I got to update her on what has been happening with me. Of course we eventually ended up with our love life. She is one of the few people I know who are just as hopelessly romantic as I am. She berated me for loving with all my heart. She said I should hold back. It wasn’t the first time I heard that. However, I did realize that I cant and shouldn’t do that if I do decide to love someone. If I hold back and things don’t work out, I will always look back and wonder if things would not have ended if I did give it my all. Being someone who loves 100%, I will not regret anything even if things fall apart because I did everything I could to keep it together. Another thing she asked is if I ever found someone who showed me that she loved me more than I did her. I said no but that didn’t mean that I wasn’t loved or that I was unhappy. It could be that I just show love more and I just take what is given me and i've learned to be contented with what i have

Its sad when you lose something you treasure. It is worse when it was because it got broken. Somehow, I like fixing things but I do know when to stop trying specially if it just doesn’t want to get fixed. Maybe someday something will be discovered to fix it. That is why i don’t throw things away. Yeah, it means a lot of stored broken stuff but hey, superglue fixed a lot of the other stuff so maybe super superglue will be invented someday.